so, dr. naturo recommended we wait a while longer before ttc again.  in some ways this is okay with me because huz and i both want to have the best chances for a pregnancy that sticks. 


i know this is a good recommendation.  i trust dr. naturo.  really, i do.


but it’s still difficult to hear.  i feel impatient with my body.  heal already, stupid body!  i don’t want to wait.  i don’t want to miscarry.  i don’t want to risk.  i don’t want to hurt.




but then what do i do with my insatiable longing and incurable hope to mother a child? 


so, we’ll follow doctor’s orders.  and deal with the sadness and frustration the best we can.  and we’ll wait.